Second-hand life in a second-hand world based on second-hand facts

I have been answering way too many questions, its just been a couple of months since i have been away from my home. Everything is not what it seems to be, we all know this hard fact of life. But when you self-realize it, the feeling is quite bitter. I have been working my ass off  so that i could save some money for my travels. I don't mind working, i enjoy it, it gets on to you'r nerves when you have to answer all the questions. Sometimes meeting complete strangers and finding yourself in an uneasy spot. You know that you don't have to be there, you know that you are not meant to answer that, but in a situation like this there is nothing much that you can do, retreat or may be surrender !! Time is the best teacher that a student can ask for, and if one is paying attention and acknowledging time there is never a moment when you will not learn something. This is my answer to every question that was asked to me.




Today we are living in a world where everyone is more or less satisfied. Man has all the comforts and everything he needs and does not need. There will come a time, however, when man will be prepared to throw off these comforts. luxury and comfort weaken the will and keep men under constant hypnosis. Alcohol and drugs are not as dangerous as man's total slavery to luxury. He cannot pull himself away from them. It is impossible unless he has become aware of something more than his parents and society could give him !



One of our problem is that very few of us have developed any distinctive personal life. Everything about us seems secondhand, even our emotions. In many cases we have to rely on second-hand information, in order to function. i accept the world of a physician, a scientist, a farmer, on trust. i do not like to do this ! I have to because they posses vital information and knowledge of living of which i am ignorant. second-hand information concerning the state of my kidneys, heart, lungs, i can live with. but when it comes to questions of meaning, purpose and death, second-hand information will not do. I cannot survive on a second-hand god. there has to be a personal word, a unique confrontation, if i am to come alive !